Starting New

The past year has torn me down and worn me out. Of course there were moments of pure love and joyfulness, but I got bogged down in all the difficult stuff. When I looked back, I realized that I was not living the way I wanted to live. Things that I used to use as a way to define myself were no longer true and that made me doubt in a big way. Finally, as I realize all of this, I'm ready to move on and take charge of my life once again. I don't know exactly what happened, but I know that my life is now headed in the right direction. How I know that is more of a feeling, no great revelations or anything, just a great comforting feeling. The road ahead will be long and not perfect, yet that doesn't worry me much.

Blogging will now be a sort of journal for myself because I know I will be more consistent with this than writing it down. Maybe because I feel the internet will hold me accountable? That makes no sense since my only follower is my husband because I don't tell people about my blog. Oh well, blogging it will be. I'm excited and nervous to see what's going to happen in the near future. One of the things that has stopped me in the past is always feeling like the job was going to be too big and the results would not match my expectations. As always, I came across a timely quote, "Nobody made a greater mistake that he who did nothing because he could do only a little."- Edmund Burke. Little by little I will make changes and start to live my life purposefully.

I have a half-formed plan in my head for at least the next month or so to get me started, let's see how it unfolds!